With a baby on the way, I find myself in the very strange position of actually not knowing what I want to do professionally. It's definitely the first time in my life that a fast-paced, all consuming job seems like the wrong choice (even if financial stability and maternity leave would both be very nice!). The problem is, I've never seriously considered an alternative. I've suddenly found myself on the 'mommy track', and have never really thought about such an odd idea before....I think that's hindering a job search more than anything else. There are so many things that look perfect-but-not-right-now. Knowing that my life is about to change in unfathomable ways makes it very difficult to figure out what *is* right for now. I'm sure that comes across in interviews.
I'm not quite sure what the solution is, except to spend a few weeks in denial, baking a lot, trying not to worry too much, and hoping everything will become clear in time...
On a side note, the blob has opened its eyes now, and if I shine a flashlight on my belly, I can feel it lift its hands to cover its eyes. This is supposed to be bad for the eye development, so I won't make a habit of it, but it's almost as entertaining as shining a flashlight through geckos used to be when I was little. I think the amount of time I can spend watching my stomach jiggle is probably a sign that finding a job sooner rather than later would be better for my sanity.
On a side note, the blob has opened its eyes now, and if I shine a flashlight on my belly, I can feel it lift its hands to cover its eyes. This is supposed to be bad for the eye development, so I won't make a habit of it, but it's almost as entertaining as shining a flashlight through geckos used to be when I was little. I think the amount of time I can spend watching my stomach jiggle is probably a sign that finding a job sooner rather than later would be better for my sanity.
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